fir dheere dheere usi dauran hamari dosti bhi ho gyi. baat simple friendship thi koi itni khas ni thi. but pta ni kya mujhe wo special lgi baki sb se. fir exam k baad hmari baate ni hui. fir kuch time baad uski bus or meri bus same ho gayi nd tb mujhe pta lga. tht wo meri city mrle hi rehti h. uski do or sister hain. dono usse choti hain.
fir jab bus ek hui to hamari baate shuru ho gyi. hum poore raaste lgataar baat krte hue jate the jese jese time guzarta raha me use pyar krne lga nd wo bahut special ho gyi mere liye. lekin me use bta ni paya tht me use kitna jada pyar krta hu. but me bhi kya krta darta tha ki khi use bura lg gya to kya hoga.
mene use kuch ni btaya bs kbhi kbhi use ishaara de dia krta tha. aese hi time nikalta rha. wo mujhse kuch ni chupati thi or me bhi usse sub kuch share krta tha. fir ek din mera ek bachpan ka dost mera subse acha dost usne hmare hi school me admission le lia. i ws happy. wo bus me aage baithta tha nd
me aur meri angel peeche baitha krre the. to ek din mene use peeche bula lia to tb mene uska apni angel ke sath intro kra dia. fir wo bhi baat krne lga usse kbhi kbhi. fir bus me mere dost ki seat uske just peeche fix ho gyi. wo dono baate krte hue jate the nd frankly speaking mjhe kbhi kbhi jealous bhi feel hoti thi.
but use mna bhi kese krta mera dost jo tha. fir ek din usne mere dost ko slam buk bhrne ko di usne bhar di apna no. bhi likh dia. so aftr tht unki phone pr baat shuru ho gyi. me bhut hurt hota tha is baat se but mene apne dost ko kuch ni kha. sb aese hi chlta gya wo uske close hone lgi. fir ek din me aur wo bethe the to mene use ishara dete hue kha ki
agar me kisi ko love krta hu to me us ladki ko kese btau. to usne smile ke sath mujh se kha ki bus jake bina kuch soche use bol do agar usne na bhi kha to tb bhi wo tumhari friend to rahegi hi. but me chla gya waha se or kuch ni kha usse mene. fir ek din me or mera dost cyber cafe gye to uske mobile uska call aa gya. unki ladai chal rhi thi kfi time se.
to usne kha ki pahle ye batao tht do u love me??? to usne bol dia ki yes. me bina kuch kahe cyber cafe se chla gya or us din bhut hurt hua nd rota rha raat din. fir kuch din baat mujhe blood pressure ki problm bhi ho gyi. mera BP bahut high rehne lga. me bilkul toot gya tha but mene apne dost ko kuch bhi ni btaya.
about my feelings or mene soch liya ki agar wo khush he to me unke beech kbhi ni aunga or me side ho gya bas apne emotions ro ro kr cntrl krta raha because aaj meri angel kisi or ki ho gyi thi. or koi tarika bhi ni tha mere paas. fir ek din me apne dost ke ghar gya jst milne ke liye to mujhe usne btaya ki usne do teen din pahle kisi ldki ko smooch kia h. nd wo kisi ladki ke liye vlgr baate kr ra tha.
but apne dost pr mujhe bharosa tha. to mene uska believe ni kiya nd me wapas ghar aa gya. fir ek do hfte baad usne dobara se whi baat uthai nd is baar usne ksam kha kr btaya to mujhe ykin sa ho gya uski baato pr nd usne mujhe dosti ka wasta dia ki me use kuch na btau is baare me.
mujhe us waqt us pr bhut gussa aaya nd mujhe samjh ni aa ra tha ki ab kya krna chahiye. ek taraf meri angel thi aur uske emotions nd doosri taraf mera dost aur hamari dosti. but mene ek din bina kuch soche sab kuch bata diya use. nd wo bhut hurt hui.
mene use apni feelings apne dost ki wajh se ni batayi thi but ab mujhe pata chal gya tha ki wo kitna bada kmina h. to isliye mene apni feelibgs batane ka socha use. to mene use sab kuch bata diya use about my feelings. usne mujhse kuch time manga to mene use kha ki tumhe jitna time lena h utna lo but please soch samaj kr hi answer dena.
fir 3 din baad usne mujhe haan bol dia. nd me bahut bahut khush tha. i ws feeling as the king of the world. but fir pta ni kya hua usne us ladke se bol dia ki tumne dhokha kiya mere sath nd smoich wali baat bhi bol di. aur use pta chal gya ki mene use bata dia h. kyu ki usne ye baat sirf mujhe hi batai thi.
fir usne uske samne mana kar dia ki mene aesa kuch bhi ni kiya aur me usse jhooth bol raha hu. usne fir mujhse baat krna bandh sa hi kar diya nd doosri taraf meri mere dost se bhi ladai ho gyi. usne mujhe bhut torchr kia. kbhi lfke bula luye kbhi kch kbhi kuch. but me kuch ni kr pa raha tha. because me kuch sochne samjh ne ki conditn me hi ni tha.
wo dono fir se relation me ho gye. but fir ek mahine ke baad usine mujhse baat karna shuru kiya. nd usne pahle ki koi baat ni chedi nd me usse is liye baat ni kr raha tha kyu ki ek din wo ladka mere ghar aaya tha nd usne mujhe bataya tha ki wo mujhe phone pr abuse kr ri thi. but bhut time baad ye sub clear ho gaya tha.
wo jhoot bol raha tha nd jese usne mujhse kha wese hi mere bare me usse bola krta tha. but ye sab janne ke baad bhi wo aaj usi se pyar krti h. but me aaj bhi use like krta hu bhut bhut pyar krta hu but wo use krti h. or me use sapne me bhi ni bhul skta wo to mere itne close thi ki hum dono ne ek baar ek hi softy me khaya tha.
but aaj wo uski hai. but roj har pal mera pyar uske liye badhta jata hai. lekin mujhe lagta he ki ab wo bs jab bhi kaam hota hai tabhi mujhe yaad karti hai. wo dono hath pakad kar jate the bus me wo ek baar hug bhi kar chuke hain but tb bhi me use bhut pyar karta hu. ab aap sab hi btaiye ki me kya karu. mujhe pata hai ki koi rasta ni hai but fir bhi i wnt your suggestions if any. nd ye bhi btaiye ki kya meri koi galti thi khi pr ?
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